Sometimes, you just need to take a moment to yourself and shed a few tears… Then get back on the pole.
So, the other day I was in pole class and having a hard time with getting the moves that were being taught. I was getting frustrated with myself. I know some had to do with my lack of flexibility on one of the moves, but the other I should have been getting.
Now I realized that I do have a lot going on in my life right now and it is adding stress on me. The law firm I work for is merging with another firm. I know I am keeping my job, but there is still stress there. I also have the AIDS LifeCycle coming up in June and that is weighing on me. Plus add a couple of other stress factors, well it starts having an effect on you. That stress starts to build up and your health, mentality and even your poling can be affected.
Now back to the other night, we were working on getting into a Martini and I was just not having any luck. I was giving up. I had to sit down. I getting really frustrated with myself and feeling like a failure. As I sat in that corner I started to cry. Surprisingly, no one noticed, or at least let me have my moment in peace. I just sat there feeling the tears running down my cheeks.
The thing was it felt good. It felt like a little bit of stress was released with each tear. I could feel the tightness in my muscles let up as I let my emotions out. I took my moment to myself and just let it happen. When I was done crying, dried my tears and was ready to rejoin the class.
I got on to the pole, did my side climb up, swung my leg to the other side, grabbed that leg and there I was, in the Martini.
I am also lucky to have a great instructor, one that knows when to push me and when to let me have my moment in the corner.
So when life starts to get in your way and weigh down on you, that that moment to yourself and just let the tears flow. There is nothing wrong with it. Just let the stress out then dry them and get on with life..